March 26, 2007 - Monday  | 3/26/07 Here's a reason to get up in the morning:
I love that when I wake up and roll to my side, I see the three most important ladies in my life. No, not my three wives.. they're on the other side. No, on this side would be My wife, and my two daughters who ahve recently begun what some would call a bad habit... I call it a blessing.
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Neon Bible
By Arcade Fire
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| March 13, 2007 - Tuesday | "Who is led?" "Who is led into sin, and I do not inwardly burn?"
~ 2 Corinthianns 11:29
sometimes, I just want to reach out and pull people out of their situations and make it all better for them. Take away the struggles, the pain, the fights, the bad pasts. Its a big task, and I have no right to do it. God gave and has led each into their own, giving no more than they can handle. But I do feel that sense of longing and frustration... why won't they listen? Why won't they take warning and my life as an example? I've laid it bear and open.
Who am I to judge? It took mehow long to come to where I am, and it is nont by my own volition, but Christ compels me. It is not my work, but Christ's within me. It would be wrong of me, though to sit and allow them to make the same mistakes, right? Can they call that judgement?
I am not Jeremiah, but I understannd talking to deaf ears.
I am not Christ, but I understand wanting to draw them close.
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Third Eye Blind
By Third Eye Blind
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| March 12, 2007 - Monday | How'd you like to be alone and drowning? Picture me with a huge stone, twice the size of me, hung around my neck. I think a more accurate picture would be me hanging from this immense thing. Imagine it being rolled into the sea. "Even if you drank the whole ocean, you'd still lack air".
If I had but one goal, it would be to honor my God with all I do and say. If I had another goal it would not to cause otehrs to sin. It's bad enough I do it.
A HYMN TO GOD THE FATHER.
by John Donne
I.
WILT Thou forgive that sin where I begun,
Which was my sin, though it were done before?
Wilt Thou forgive that sin, through which I run,
And do run still, though still I do deplore?
When Thou hast done, Thou hast not done,
For I have more.
II.
Wilt Thou forgive that sin which I have won
Others to sin, and made my sin their door?
Wilt Thou forgive that sin which I did shun
A year or two, but wallowed in a score?
When Thou hast done, Thou hast not done,
For I have more.
III.
I have a sin of fear, that when I have spun
My last thread, I shall perish on the shore ;
But swear by Thyself, that at my death Thy Son
Shall shine as he shines now, and heretofore ;
And having done that, Thou hast done ;
I fear no more.
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| March 5, 2007 - Monday | squall of individuals Driving to get my girls from the sitter's, a small snow flurry came on. I was struck with the memory fo a poster, or one of those annoying chain e-mails, where they tell you how there are millions and millions and millions of snowflakes and they are all different. No two alike.
And then, as a footnote, I thought back to 3rd grade science (could also ahve been 2nd.. not sure) and I recalled that each snowflake is made with a dust particle. If you broke upon its tiny arms and branches, out would come a single speck of dirt. All individual, same heart.
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| March 4, 2007 - Sunday | I believe you Throw back to old days, I pulled out Portishead and was amazed again. The attachments we put on music. Who knew so much of my memories could be awakened by a song? All my sin, and all my joy.
And I do love that album.
"There is only one thing a man can really remake - himself- adn that only with the aid of God's grace"
~ Joy Davidman
Smoke on the Mountain
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| February 26, 2007 - Monday | Micah's got some wise words I've been redeemed, and I am being redeemed, and I will be redeemed.
There is hope in my failings, and there is beauty in the ashes. I am not like a phoenix who just keeps rising from the ashes. I am not the same. I am better when I rise. I am stronger. I hold in my hand the secret to this strength, the reminder of an immortal wound. So, if you remember who I was, thats cool. It only seems to remind me of how far I've been brought. And maybe a little, where you chose to stay behind.
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Pretend You're Alive
By Lovedrug
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| February 22, 2007 - Thursday | foolish virgins or prodigals So, i am beginning to understand what it means to be a pastor on sunday mornings. It is full of responsibility and work. The time for you to learn and to take notes is throughout the week, and you must be willing not to lead at those times but to be led.
And maybe this is part of my stuggling right now, I'm still expecting a span of an hour to worship and be taught on sunday mornings, when i have responsibilities that contradict that impulse. I need to find another moment in the week to be ministered to.
Is this what being a slave for Christ means? The redefining of my will in relation to God? Or, is this way too literal... maybe I've got the wrong end of the stick. Beyond my mind, how can I be a servant to others on sunday without becoming a slave to them? 1:11 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove | |
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| February 20, 2007 - Tuesday | go get your rope What am I going to try to kill this lent? My pride. My wants.
I want to kill anything that separates me from God. Completely.
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| February 19, 2007 - Monday | heyheyhey, Mr Hangman Lent starts in two days, and I wonder at the implications of my life and what, put together, it amounts to. On reading Kings, you know Jeroboam did no wrong, and becuase of that he is going to die young. I don;t think I'm going to die young for any other reason than I am not good. Some days I am indeed "walking in the ways of the Kings of Israel". But I want to be better. I want to be all Christ has for me.
In my weakness he is made strong.
But I am still weak.
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Not Too Late
By Norah Jones
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| February 12, 2007 - Monday | The humility of God Instead of placing himself in the sky to bring light to all, He set a secondary source of light. And this would be the difference between me and Him, I would've set my giant face in the sky to remind everyone from where they are getting their light and that I'm actually here.  | Currently listening :
Please Come Home (Dig)
By Dustin Kensrue
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| February 5, 2007 - Monday | My heart is broken I spent last weekend in the hospital. The heart condition I've had since birth got a little out of hand and I could not settle it down as I normally am able. So, I spent three days in a bed. They ran tests, as my black and blue marks testify, to see why I was there. I have my dad's heart, which would be ok for someone my dad's age. My two cardiologists told me I was too young to be there. They ran tests and looked for everything (hormones, heart abnormalities, stress, cholestoral) but they found nothing. So why was I there? It felt like a hummingbird trying to get out of my chest. Maybe my heart found somewhere else it would've rather been.  | Currently listening :
Back from Nowhere
By Polarboy
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| January 29, 2007 - Monday | What's the line again? Some days I feel horribly rehearsed, as if I know the lines and blocking but not sure what my motivation is.
Then I look up and am reminded of my motivation and who indeed is the lifter of my head. "The lifter of my head"... that right now has got to be my favourite name of God.
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The Crane Wife
By The Decemberists
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| January 23, 2007 - Tuesday | Exhausted yet Pursuing ref Judges 8:4
There is no forever in sight - no vision in my glance. I could talk of the here-after as though I were a kid waiting for recess, but that analogy is flawed. I am a grown man not looking for rest or reward. I am looking for the author and perfector of my faith. I will have no f aith after I see the Living God - my faith will be needed no more. It will be my sight.
I am exhausted, in many ways. In spite and despite my exhaustion I praise God in my waking and in my lyihng down. His praise and my prayers are ever on my lips. Prayers for redemption and relief. Sometimes just relief from myself. Sometimes just for relief from my job.And sometimes from everything else.
I do feel recharged after spending time with my family. And how I long for more of that. I want nothing more than to sit with my wife and girls and be comforted as I comfort.
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Father
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| January 24, 2007 - Wednesday | Judges Father,
Never let me ask just for deliverance from my punishment or sufferngs. Give me the perspective to ask for forgiveness and to be in a state of repentance. Humble my heart so I may receive my punishment for my sin as it is due to me. Let me glory not in my deliverance from punishment, but in my deliverance from sin.
Thanks.
And sorry about that.
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By Damien Rice
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| January 23, 2007 - Tuesday | teaching fourh grade I taught fourth grade today. I like fourth grade. They're not as into themselves as fifth or sixth, and not as immature as third grade. Yes, I like fourth grade. And they are still so honest.
And for all those fourth graders out there who are my loyal subscribers... I know that I am a 27 year old how is still breaking out. I can blame anything I want, and be told all the myths you can dish out, but I may just jump on board with Jessica Simpson pretty soon and marry Nick Lache or whatever she is peddling in those commercials.
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Jessica Simpson: In This Skin
By Jessica Simpson
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