November 6, 2005 - Sunday 1 down Current mood: thoughtful Hey there all you procrastinators! Well, I'm in the midst of writing my paper that i've been putting off for two weeks. its not so bad... I'm about a third of the way through it. But, wouldn;t you know it, my mind has wandered to this: "How shall I describe this generatio? These people are like a group of children playing a game in the public square. They complain to their friends, 'We played wedding songs, and you weren't happy, so we played funeral songs, and you weren't sad'. For John the Baptist didn't drink wine and he often fasted, and you say, 'He's demon possessed'. And I, the Son of Man, feast and drink, and you say, 'He's a glutton and a drunkard, and a friend of the worst sinners!' But wisdom is show to be right by what results from it" Matthew 11:16-19 I wonder who I'm trying to perform for? Am I really just trying to play my part to a crowd that will never be happy with it? Well, back to work. Currently listening : Nickel Creek By Nickel Creek Release date: 21 March, 2000 11:58 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

November 3, 2005 - Thursday And the clouds opened up... So, the other night, tuesday night last, I walked home form work. I live bout ten minutes from my work as I walk, and it was a cool night. I was thinking all night of asking someone to take me home, but I just didn't. Don't know why, just didn't. I've takin' to likin' these walks. Its quiet and dark and everyone is usully asleep. Its relly one of the few chnces I have to being alone. As some of you know, I'm relly struggling to figure out what to do after I graduate. i worry and fret about it and I tend to wrestle with it bit more than i should. But, its good to think about these things. As I was alking home, I was walking through a particularly darker street. It had rined earlier that evening and the sky was still overcast. As I was praying, I begn to really pour out my heart to God, just telling Him all of my thoughts, concerns and worries about teh new yer, when a wind came up, out of nowhere and blew the clouds away, revealing a perfect night sky. No moon, so all the strs could be seen. Mars, the bright ornge brilliance, was directly overhead. I heard an assurance in my heart: "If God can tke care of all these stars, create, name and sustain them, and direct that planet with such grace, why am i so worried?" As I rounded the corner, I was full of praise and prayer, thanking God, but He was not done. At the bottom of the hill, three doe started to cross the road. And nother reassurnace came up: "Those deer do not worry about anything. They are given all they need, and when they are taken, it is at God's hand, as He even provides for the hunter through them." Such sovreignty our God has. Am I still gonna worry adn fret, probably. But not right now. And not when i remember the evening of All Saint's Day. Currently listening : Much Afraid By Jars of Clay Release date: 16 September, 1997 1:18 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

November 1, 2005 - Tuesday Daylight Saving Current mood: tired A weird thought I shared with my friend Josh. He lives in Nashville. I live in Harrisburg. His girlfriend lives in Pittsburgh. Nashville is one hour behind us. But for one hour last sunday morning, when it struck 2 am here... we were in the same hour. This happens twice a year. Am I a nerd to think this is cool? For one hour, we shared time with those behind us. Currently reading : Surprised by Joy: The Shape of My Early Life By C.S. Lewis Release date: 23 March, 1966 12:15 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

October 18, 2005 - Tuesday Gr8 times @ concerts nd what not Last Saturday Night, a group of us went to see Chris Tomlin, Mtt Redman and Louie Giglio do a show that rocked my world. This is not teh first time that I've seen any fo the artists but.. well.. I'll put it liek this: Have you ever seen a band so many times, or read a book so mnay times, or visited a friend so many times, that you are never bored with them, but are alwys excited to see them again becuase you never know whats gonna happen but you are assurred a good time? This was last sturday night. I imagine there are lots of bands, books, people, that this could always apply to in my life. Nicel Creek, "The Chronicles of Narnia", "East of Eden", Justin McRoberts and his lovely wife... these are people/bands/ books that i alwys look forward to seeing. I hope that you are having one of those kinds of days. Currently reading : Basics of Biblical Hebrew Grammar By Gary D. Pratico Release date: 01 September, 2001 1:06 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

October 4, 2005 - Tuesday Malachi 3:6 "I am the Lord and I do not change. That is why you descendants of Jacob are not already completely destroyed..." (NLT) Malachi is a short book of the Bible and well worth the read if you 1) lack time 2) wonder what its like when God tlks to himself I mean not literally. Its Malachi talking to the people. But God asks these questions, then has "Israel" answer them, then He answers back. This not something you'd think the Cretor fo the universe would do all day... maybe us, but not Him. And yet, how comforting is it to know that God knows how we think. He is answering the very questions He knew they were asking in their hearts. They were having problems dealing with God becasue the people who were supposed to be teching them stopped caring. So, when they ask, 'Why ahs God abandoned us?" (Mlachi 2:14), God equtes to a marriage gone horrbly wrong becasue the groom forgot how to treat his wife. Instead he goes off trying to pacify his wife with gifts, instead of with love. God did not change. He has not changed. Amazing, considering how I want to change and be different everyday, if not every hour. He is an anchor in the storm of my personlities and chracters.